Those who can, do; those who can't, teach.

Well, this quote usually pisses me off. It still kinda does. I mean, if you can't do it, you wonder how you can teach someone else to do it. But now I guess I know what it's saying: if you are good at something, you want to go out and do it - make a living with it, show the world your talent, even kind of keep it to yourself because it makes you feel special and talented. But if you can't do something, you tend to tell others what not to do. Like when parents try to live their lives through their kids - they failed at following their dreams how they wanted to, so they try to show their kids what not to do and how to follow their own dreams (or the parent's dreams) successfully. Basically, you tell people not to do something stupid so that they can be successful, and I guess you can ride off of their success because you couldn't manage it yourself.

I don't mean to make anyone sound selfish, but it's like if you're an actor and you got the part you wanted in a play, you want to impress everyone with your skills and would kill the person who tries to take your spotlight. But if something happens, like you get sick the day before the performance, then you can't do it anymore. So you want someone else to go on in your place, like an understudy, and make the play as best as it can be because it still kinda has your name on it and you still love it.

So, I had a point to make with all this. Lately, I've been giving lots of friends advice. I know, I should have no business doing so considering I fail at life, but maybe I'm just not meant to do the things I want to do. I want to have a good relationship where both me and him are happy, but I can't accomplish that yet. So I want to help my friends get in relationships so that they can be happy, and at least someone will be happy and in a way I would have created a successful relationship.

No, I haven't actually got them into a relationship yet, but they have made progress with their crushes, and well... only time and a lot of pushing will tell how things will work out. As for me, well... I still haven't talked to my boyfriend. Avoiding him like the plague, actually. I planned out exactly what I would say and even how I would respond to him because I can somewhat figure out what he would say. But I don't have the cajones to call him. Plus, the more I plan out something, the more likely it is to fail. So, yeah...

But there is an upside to all this:

This has been the first blog update where I wasn't totally depressed. Maybe it's because I get to see my best friends everyday, or make new friends, or keep myself busy, but I'm happy and I want to stay this way as long as possible.