Recently, I had a dream about a guy friend where we he hesitated, then kissed me, then I ran away. (I had a dream just like this in seventh grade with another guy I barely talked to, and later on I ended up getting a crush after having my dream). My friend says I'm confused about my feelings for him. The day before, I was muttering about how everyone I know was in a relationship or setting dates for prom (I know it's freaking early for that), and I was feeling lonely, so my friend suggested I ask him to prom. He didn't say anything, but my friend says that I asked him a manner where it was unclear if I was serious, and apparently I speak like this all the time.
I didn't realize I always spoke in a seemingly joking manner. This frustrates me. Maybe that's why nobody takes me seriously.
I don't think I really have feeling for him, I just think he's an extremely nice guy and a good friend, so I thought he'd be a good guy to go to prom with. But now my brain (or my heart, whichever does the thinking) is trying to confuse me.
'Ask him on a date!' my heart says. I don't want to do that - I've never been on a date before, and I'd rather not waste my first date on someone I believe I have no real feelings for.
'Ignore it before you get a crush on him that isn't a real crush at all.' You have a good point, brain. Often I get a crush on someone just because one of their qualities intrigues me, and soon get over said crush. It's probably just a phase.
'Shut up and go to bed.' My brain replies. Hmph. Well then, I will.
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